possible need of saving

I'll try to keep things organized after this point, but it will be a random stream of dates before then.

NO TIME
I can't remember much, I slept too much today. I remember being in a car wreck where everyone else had died, and I had somehow came out mostly unscathed. I was crawling away from the car wreck until I was kidnapped in a dark bag and thrown every which way and dragged around until I ended up in a jail cell in a completely unfamiliar location. This area had a lot of blocks and debris just floating around, and everything looked like red or orange rusted metal bolted together. I don't remember how, but I had gotten out of containment, and was looking around for an exit but the place didn't seem to have one that wasn't an open ceiling ridiculously high up. There was a large crevice running through the middle of this structure, and the building seemed to ring around it so that everyone could see it and to the other side of the building. I was looking at a registry of people related to something when I was spotted by a mechanical ghost and taken captive.
They dragged me to a small room with 2 people at computers and a large capsule with several wires and needles, and the older man without an arm said "Is this the test subject?", to which the ghost replied with a soft beeping. The man just nodded to the younger girl operating the computer and she started typing some stuff in while I was shoved into the capsule. They put an oxygen mask on me and then shut the door. I felt needles and wires inserting into my body while the capsule filled up with a thick, dark green glowing goop that felt burning hot. The wires were electrifying me for some purpose while the needles were injecting more goop into my system. I don't know how long I was in there, but the pain was unbearable.
The people were just watching me the whole time while the ghost stood outside the doorway, and it felt like days on end that my entire body was being put through hell for some ridiculous test. Finally, the door swung open and everything spilled out, while everything was disconnected from me and the mask came off. The younger girl was asking if "it" worked while the old man just looked into my eyes. My mouth felt incredibly sharp, and I couldn't really stand normally anymore, my body was incredibly arched and my old human skin was shredded everywhere with the new body underneath being bigger, completely different and colored blue. I didn't have normal hands anymore, instead black claws with bones poking out of them.
The dream ended when I lunged at the mechanical ghost. My body still hurt a lot after waking up.

8/11
I died. My brother had killed me From there on. I was a lost spirit that could go through time to see the future and past.
I cried a lot

8/4 I lived in a small settlement with all the basic necessities and about 10 people. There was a winter that has drawn into the spring and the summer, and eventually all the world's resources were dwindling, including our own. We talked with each other a lot to stave off hunger and boredom, but over time, people started dying or killing themselves. We were down to 3 people including myself when the dream ended.
Sometime during the dream, with 4 people left, I wanted to draw a map of the world, for someone who had never seen it. We only had one pencil and no paper; and this was recently after an author killed himself by eating all the paper. I pointed at the sky to an Earth covered in snow. I told him, while pointing to the Australia facing us, that that used to be one of the hottest places on the earth.
Eventually, he starved to death later in the dream. I decided to head off to "school", in the unknown darkness and blizzard. I don't know who I left behind, only that I shouldn't have. Before I knew it, I ended up in the school I used to attend, and many former students were there. I went to the cafeteria for food, and they had a decent amount but not much variety. I took some cheese and sat down. Someone walked up to me and gave me a camera. In this camera had been all the notable moments of my school life, even though I don't remember having my pictures taken. The dream ends with me slowly eating the cheese and flipping through the pictures on the camera, while people are talking to each other and laughing like there was nothing wrong with the world.
There was next to nothing in the camera.

7/20
Narrow city streets, zipline
Found someone's body all slashed up with limbs and half her head gone

7/18
animals must die
filtration masks and goggles
cover body
I didn't know of this ruinous world until recently
someone was teaching me how to shoot and properly cover upafter I found a nice rifle
he found a buried infant and shot its head off and yelled at my mother about how even dead, it could still be disastrous
a few other people arrived home and dropped off their masks and stuff when inside
I looked in the mirror and I was a kid again, I didn't know and someone told me if only I was mature enough to go out

6/29
i was in the "zero hour clinic"
I was told i had a last note from [x] stashed in an abandoned theater somewhere and that i shouldn't really have done what I did

6/24
reliving my abused childhood with an alternative ending
my father killed himself on accident with a lawnmower while i watched

6/16
very large dock area, kind of like its own island multiple events happen, a spirit is forced to leave, a man is taught what's right, I find out about the decaying state of the world. this is the same world in which I dreamed earlier, the endless see and clouds everywhere, and that area beyond that was completely silent with a whale that would take you down.
I don't remember much of the islands at this point but it was always really sunny and bright despite the entire area being covered in a sort of dome of clouds

6/14 helicopter landing, so many people I had to kill
the school that vilifies me, the school I hate, i go there and steal but nothing else, soon I am forced into an evaluation room with a teacher when I notice my flesh is sloughing off my body and my mouth is long

3/4/18
certain person leading me through corridors but I disappear chainsawing multiple people snowy area at night with buildings

3/2/18 12:39AM
I was living in some kind of modernistic commons area, which was a lot of incredibly large, square rooms with scant amounts of furniture being connected to the others by relatively small hallways. There were upper floors with more hallways and more complexity and twisting and turning of some sort I can't remember, it was very confusing. Nobody ever managed to reach up there. The commons life was uneventful, people sort of just lumbered around huddled in tough blankets though it wasn't really that cold. Some people passed their time exercising, others playing card games. One day I was walking through to the edge of the commons (a corner room rather) to find a man feasting on some corpses. There was a trail of blood behind him from other rooms and I felt the most urgent danger there. I ran as fast as I could looking around, but everybody was already dead. Soon, I found him following behind.
The complex started twisting around, the gravity inversing, reversing, so that we were flying all around with no sense of direction and only goals to chase for. I tried fly through the upper areas to lose him but he was always able to find me somehow, and this continued on for a long time. I'm blanking here, but I eventually happened upon a "secret" passage within the tangle of passages which was a stone set of stairs lit by torches. I warily proceeded through them to find them ending in nothing- just a hole in a wall. I jumped out of the hole and fell on some solid green land that curved on endlessly.
I walked for a while until the clouds in the sky started swirling around and something big started to rise up out of nowhere. It was a mostly monochrome girl, towering over me while the clouds faded away leaving just a faintly blue sky, her and the walkway I was on. The wall behind me fell away, and a waterfall started trickling away at the end of the path, but I didn't take much notice of this. I started floating up and into her chest without any control as she stared at me, and I was convinced that I was finally being released from my tormentful life. The last thing I remember of the dream is sitting on a stone under a mossy torii with the grass flowing endlessly in all directions.

2/19/18 (????)
I can't remember much at this point, since it has been a while since I dreamt this.
I remember dragging myself through the tight, collapsed corridors of a pyramid for a long time, and being cursed with some varieties of demonic-looking seals on my face as I progressed through it. The tunnels eventually opened up into a monochrome, sad area with a white school in it. It looked almost like an old castle, except with no texture at all and a somewhat high number of windows. The area around the school had color if you looked out the windows from inside but this was never accessible. I kept walking up the winding stairs of the school and eventually reached the last floor, which had only one door on it with a mirror next to it. I looked at myself in the mirror and this is where I found out about the curses I had taken on inside the pyramid. I opened the door to walk in, but the dream ends right there.

3/31 12:55 pm
notes: Bug exterminators, underground dungeons for breeding fodder for the big bugs
So many bugs. This one was utterly puerile. I don't want to write it.

3/26, 3/27, 3/30/18 (????) miscellaneous notes that don't make much sense to me now.
1. "everything ends at the top floaty"
2. "many stories fast on streets an old dream numbered people"
3. "corruption of an individual a weird, alien world rollers"

3/24/18 (????)
I can't remember much. I was in a small city that was closed off from the rest of the world, with not quite human beings staggering around disjointedly. A lot of things were perpetually on fire and the general colors of the city itself were a lot of dark red and such. I stayed in a convenience store that was lit the pale white as if it were the normal depressing type of store, which was somehow a comfort in this area. I got snacks from the guy at the counter occasionally, and the disjointed beings wouldn't really try to come inside for whatever reason. I remember seeing another human in a old-styled room (fancy red carpet, wood furnishings, nice fireplace type of deal) in the "wall" of buildings that encircled the city. They couldn't get out either, they had just gotten to that room through the window. It was really high up, so it was safe. They just watched over the city and occasionally did some stuff over the megaphone that I don't remember. That's the whole of it.

12 AM same night
I was walking on the usual distorted version of my street, with that house and those people that hurt to remember. In the forests, I saw a long, thin white creature with a human head walking on all fours, crawling speedily about. A flashlight shone on me from behind, but I don't know who did it. I was suddenly swept off my feet by the creature and it felt like I was flying through the air. I was slammed into a tree and I woke up short of breath. This was incredibly vivid.

4/1/18 3:07AM.
There was some type of contest that was supposed to be going on through a certain type of world or some such. I don't remember the details now. The dream was after this contest had already been started for a long time now.
There was a girl wandering through the aftermath of this. She first started in some victorian streets (only going straight on, a big stone fence blocking both sides) looking around at the discarded corpses of people or the nearly dead people around, though there was just one of that latter type. That person whispered a few words to the girl before closing her eyes for the final rest. The girl was innocent, of course, so this was all hard for her to take in. She finally happened upon a massive cathedral with cold flames all around it. They would cause frostbite if you were to put your hand directly in them for too long. The pews of the cathedral were broken and tossed aside, the once dignitary red velvet pathway torn up and colorless, and several parts broken off the cathedral. The girl stops here and sinks to her knees, crying loudly alone in this. Suddenly the flames turn red and the cathedral starts collapsing, and everything goes black.
Next, there are several people in a somewhat sparsely planted forest murdering each other, dancing around the trees as the shoot at each other and drive off in whatever vehicles they might find to continue to the next areas. The girl shows up here a long while after, and there's brutal boar-monkey type beasts with blood mottled on their fur. The areas of the contest that had already gotten accomplished were significantly harder to pass for anyone left behind or starting from the beginning for some reason. The cathedral street for example, wasn't snowing and didn't have cold fire everywhere, it was just a simple walk for an indeterminate amount of time before it started falling to ruin.
This type of thing made the girl's journey incredibly difficult, moreso than anybody who had been at the forefront of this when it had first started. I don't remember how she managed to pass through the forest, but it was extremely difficult for her. She was now in an area with an endless night sky and incredibly shallow water (not even an inch deep, but very reflective) and a single floating robed thing. The girl got a rifle that would shoot a solid, red matter that would spread out when it hit something to extend its thorns into anything around it in the forest somehow- maybe it was a secret weapon, some type of adjustment for the course difficulty variance, I don't know. This robed thing had summoned a massive, seemingly endless army of little beasts with long ears. The girl fought really hard, and really long, with the spectacle being a total contrast to the scenery around. It's a miracle she survived through all the trials so far, and even through this, she being who she was. She should have died in the cathedral street.
The last thing I remember is some type of void zone, where there were multiple desaturated, darker colors streaking everywhere and strobing while faint images of random locations were displaying around. It was hard to tell which way was up, which way was down, all that. The girl was a completely different person at this point, no longer really human. She was fighting something, but I don't remember what.

6:32pm 4/5
Not a dream, but I was laying in bed with my eyes shut trying to fall asleep. A quick vision flashed across of something like shattered glass, and I heard ringing in my ears. Just before it happened, I had flinched or reflexively brought my arms up to defend myself from something.

4/21/18 8am
I was walking around in a city that was supposedly modern, but every building was built with stone, or brick. While they had modern design sensibilities, they still used old methods of construction. All the streets were somewhat narrow, unfit for cars but people could comfortably walk in them. It was nighttime and raining quite hard.
There was someone important to me for whatever reason, though I couldn't really find her at the present time. I don't know where or when but I had found a paper from her saying that she was going to kill herself. I ran around frantically, looking for her, until I found her perched next to a fence that barred the way to a steep drop into a narrow canal.
Falling there meant certain death. I didn't immediately talk to her, however, I stopped in a nearby bar/store combination. It was fairly small, and there were few people as well as it being dimly lit. There were some mundane things on display for sale, except a dark, metallic hand (as well as all of the previously mentioned girl's possessions being there, she had sold them all).
I took the hand and left, thinking it would save her for some reason. I found her dancing like a lunatic under a street light and showed her the hand. She started following me around after that, and I don't remember where the hand went.
The last thing I remember is just her whispering into my ear about how sad I am, her arms wrapped around me while i'm curled up next to a light. The rain is still pouring, and we hear thunder in the distance but never see lightning.

4/28/18 10am
Not a dream. One of the few experiences with sleep paralysis that I remember. I can only remember the outline of a person I despise, feeling extremely scared and fighting very hard to keep my eyes open. I was hearing extremely loud screaming, and it felt like my head was being forced or shoved into the bed.

4/24/18 ????pm
A completely white dream. Everything was white with black scratches or marks across it. The floor itself was just pure black. I was walking through this silent labyrinth until I see a normal house. I enter this normal house, and there is someone who's face I can't see sitting on a couch. He tries to make me take a knife, to have a chance against him in a fight, this offer I reply with running past him and taking a gun from behind the couch and try to fire at him. But the gun just clicks- it didn't have any bullets.
This person decides he won't kill me anymore, instead torturing me, breaking my arms and [x;;;;;[[[[[[[[[[[

5/15/18 4:36AM
I was standing around on a slick, black cruise ship during a blood eclipse when 2 people walked up to me, a male wearing a black suit, with grey hair and sunglasses and a female, wearing a dark, blue, long coat with a square visor that had points on the end and a long black scarf-cloak type of wear. Under the coat was a black sports bra and baggy pants. I was promptly shot in the head and fell to the floor. But it doesn't end there; I didn't die. It was so hard to die in this dream. After getting shot, I noticed a leaderboard show up. I had been forcibly dragged into some sort of death onslaught where the first to 8 kills of other "participants" wins and gets a wish. If you died 8 times however, you were dead forever. Another facet of it was that every participant was extremely difficult to kill, often taking many bullets to the head and stompings and etc. We all hated each other so thoroughly for a particular reason I can't remember.
At the beginning of the dream, our strength was normal, but as time progressed, we got stronger, faster, more durable, so it was even harder to kill. The area also started "dissociating", making less and less sense further on. I had a sword and magnum with me at the beginning, and I was constantly getting shot at and taking cover and running through the various (corrugated steel for some reason) corridors of the ship. After each death, you would revive in a random area after a bit of time, although your energy wasn't completely recovered, so if you were completely drained when you died you would be mostly drained when awakening. I didn't get to rest at all during this dream, it was a constant struggle of fighting and death, sometimes I would be completely unable to move while people were weakly kicking at my head or striking it with the butt ends of their rifles. Another stipend of this little "competition" was that, you would only get points for killing the people that were in at the time of your entrance. Meaning I was only allowed to kill whoever I dragged in, and the 2 people that were there before me. In addition to vicious hatred of each other, we were waging a difficult war against one another, anybody else after us also on our ass but us unable to get rid of them. After a long time of fighting, about 4 or 5 days, I happened upon a secret passage on the ship. At this point, I was so strong and fast (as well as the other beginning competitors, we were literally flying around getting disoriented and swinging massive weapons almost weightlessly) and the passage was blocked by a supposedly indestructible wall, but I destroyed it in several hits with my weapon. I proceeded through the passage until I found the holy grail of weapons at the end- an anti-material rifle. This thing would put an end to anything in a couple shots, where it would take hundreds with other weaponry. I examined it, and then I heard a choked cry at the beginning of the passage.
The girl who had dragged me into the fight was there, with her hand at her chest, and an utterly betrayed look in her face. She knew what I had gotten, and I promptly went prone and nailed her directly in the face with several shots in a second. Even so long after the dream, I can still remember her face clearly, and the resulting destruction. Her body falling backwards, and the blood spurting out. This ticked my kills towards about 7 at this point, I believe. The girl had 7, and the man had 5. I was at 6 deaths, the girl ticked to 7 and the man 7. I rushed outside, and there was a massive swarm of other competitors after me. I rushed through them with my sword, killing them not benefiting me for the counter but certainly helping me not die. Outside, the ship was breaking apart in half and there was a corruption the middle. At one end of the boat, the man was actually igniting his life. There were even more people there, all jumping towards him, and he was glowing yellow with spikes growing around him. He was unleashing an impossible barrage of bullets from his 2 pistols, and they were utterly wiping out the horde of barely people now; more monster-like now that I had looked closer. There were so many bullets, and every one of them was impossibly destructive. I got grazed by one and it did far more damage than it should have. The expense of this life ignition however, was death. This man was yelling at us both to run into the corruption before he started fading away, the light growing brighter. My vision went black. I didn't take enough care to notice that he was yelling at two people. My neck was still somewhat weak from a prior assault and so the girl had severed it with her sword. I immediately revived just above the corruption, and we both fell in. Inside was completely indescribable. Walls were shifting around, it was a pulsing red, and it was all sloping downwards towards some end that we couldn't see. We were sliding and forcing ourselves further down as fast as we could, while firing at each other. Directions were constantly changing, everything was winding, it was a general nightmare to comprehend, so we didn't bother doing that, simply focusing on each other and trying to murder. We seemed to "fall" for forever, until we finally saw the exit. I got close to her somehow and wrapped my arms around her neck. As we fell through the exit, we were spinning incredibly fast and I had managed to land so that her back was slammed on the grassy floor of this new area. This new area was just a theater in an open area of some dark woods, some walls being around despite not serving much purpose as they randomly ended and started.
Below me was the girl, unable to move after having exhausted so much energy and being slammed into the ground from however fast we went. I could barely move myself, and I didn't have my weapons, so I weakly stomped on her head for however long it took. Eventually, some torches were lit in the theater and I saw my kill count tick to 8. I went and sat in one of the seats of the theater, my eyes drifting shut, a curtain raising on the show which I didn't see, and the dream ends there.